Week 18: Why Does It Always Rain On Me?

This week's diary is based on the song ‘Why does it always rain on me’ by the Scotish rock band Travis. I can relate to this song to the extent of whether or not to laugh or cry? Ever find yourself saying ‘why me’? I’m sure many can relate. Twenty years prior fresh out of uni; the sky's the limit!...you think you can take anything on. Like all my peers in their 20s during the turn of the century I still vividly remember all the celebrations; what a year that was. With an aptitude to explore and hunger to succeed, traveling at rocket speed to leave your imprint. So much enthusiasm, confidence and brimming with energy. What can possibly go wrong? Well family bereavement for one and suddenly you're in deep waters. Enthusiasm changes to scepticism, confidence to utter fear and energy to lacklustre, basically a living zombie. You can easily lose a decade to this grief. Honestly, like being abducted by UFOs in a spaceship and returned back to earth. It's you but not you at the same time as life is never the same beyond this point!

Take two: It's the naughties now and this decade I'm opening up a new venture, a ‘fitness centre’. Premises sorted, equipment leased marketing in full swing, loans agreed then boom; 2007/8 financial crash. Some time later enter the 2010s, a brief stint of happiness, love is in the air, white lace and cup-cakes and all the ‘I do’s’ laters, health implications! This time not a financial crash but a crash of biology. Your body lets you down and you find yourself in a 3rd wave of uncertainty, heartache and sadness. Hospital visits and treatments became the new norm but you're still soldering through to yet another lost decade... Building on that career, still hopeful, still happy. I was certain 2020 was my year. After all I have been prepping for it the entire 2019 what can go wrong?? Well Corona for one. All the theory side and set-up was done, all that was left was the practical. This is where the real fun was supposed to begin. Lockdown wasn't part of the deal!

So now what? As you can see this is my fourth attempt. Am I tired? Yes. Am I fed-up? Of course. Am I angry? Absolutely. So where do I go from here? What direction can I take? I can sit here and cry and feel sorry for myself or I can take the bull by the horn and give it a good bashing. I refuse to be defeated, I refuse to quit. The universe can keep putting obstacles my way but it fails to remember just how resilient and tenacious I can be. Sorry to bore you with this monologue but I thought it was necessary to share it with you as no doubt, there will be others who'll get caught up in the rain and feel exactly the same. While I may not be able to take your troubles away, I can certainly offer you my umbrella (in the form of my experience) until this storm passes. So please believe me when I say this to you. The lockdown won't last forever, business will flourish, the sun will shine once again and it will stop raining, (at least on us for the time being) hehehe....  

Go get your mojo and don't forget to stop by next week. I have a new plan and I can't wait to share this with you.